My mother had a stroke

So my mother had a stroke the other day. And probably a heart attack as well.

I didn't go up to see her, stayed with my family and kids. I feel kind of guilty about that, but I also can't stand my mother. The more she wants to be around me or the kids, the harder it is to tolerate her.

She smokes, she behaves like an attention starved puppy.

Wife and I are doing better now. I'm on Wellbutrin now. It seems to help a lot with mood stuff. I'm pretty happy with it overall. Less thoughts of suicide and depression for sure. That is sort of what started me being on Wellbutrin. It's complicated.

Speaking of a puppy, I've had the urge lately to get a puppy, or a young dog that will play with the kids some.